Friday, December 19, 2014

9 Months!


Those cheeks! I'm going to miss them one day.





Hazel LOVES to eat. Half of the pictures from the last couple of months are of her eating - partly because I can't hold her and take a picture. She also can't sit up on her own yet. It makes it tricky to snap photos. :)

Her first tooth came in last week (the 9th to be exact)! Funny thing is I didn't even notice it until a couple of days before it popped through. I think she's the youngest (adjusted age) to get a tooth. Ethan was over a year when he got his first one. Ha. It makes sense why she has been chewing on everything lately.

She weighed 13 lbs 14 oz at her 9 month appointment. Her percentiles crack me up. Her weight is about .3 %, her length about .1%, and her head is in the 17%! 

She still does therapy every other week. She has been improving, but she had a setback when we went to Arizona for Thanksgiving. I think it was all of the driving and me not remembering to do her stretches and exercises. It was hard not being at home in our normal routine. It didn't help either that she had her immunizations when we got back. There was no way she was going to let me stretch her for a couple of days after shots. Now she's sick and I had to cancel her therapy appointment for tomorrow. I hope at the next appointment there is some progress.
 
Love,
Ella




Friday, November 7, 2014

Family Pictures 2014






 





In our family pictures last year I was pregnant. Crazy how much change one year brought. 
Love this family of mine. I'm so blessed. :)

Sunday, September 28, 2014

6 Months Old & a Blessing!
















Hazel was blessed this month by her daddy. It was so neat to feel like everything has come full circle since we started our journey last year. 

There have been so many changes in this little girl since my last post. Hazel isn't the fussy little baby she used to be. For the last couple of months she has been happy! Happy! She used to easily get overstimulated, but now she enjoys things that used to push her over the edge such as walks (for quite a while she hated walks), riding in a stroller, people talking to her, therapy (fine, she doesn't enjoy therapy, but she is able to calm herself down after stretching), music and noise. She loves to hold toys and grab at anything she can.  She is getting closer to sitting up on her own. Yea for progress!

It's been about a year since I started having complications in my pregnancy. Oh what a year can bring. I'm grateful it brought us a precious baby girl. What a miracle she is. There isn't a day that goes by that I am not amazed at the fact that she is here with us - and healthy! I don't pretend to know why Hazel and I (and my family) have been blessed in the ways we have. We all have different paths and all I can do is be grateful and learn from the experiences I've gone through. I'm grateful to my Heavenly Father for His many many tender mercies throughout my trials.

Love,
Ella


Wednesday, July 30, 2014

I Know a Rhino



One of our very favorite family books is I Know a Rhino by Charles Fuge. You can tell it's well loved by the tape down the middle. Avella was beyond excited to have 'lots of animals'  in her bed like the girl in the book. What a little cutie pie.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

And The Winner Is...


Congratulations, Krista! You won a massage and lunch with yours truly (that's me, just in case you were wondering)! 

Thank you everyone for visiting me while I was in the hospital. It meant so much to me and helped the days go by (kind of) quickly. You all kept me sane! Look how full that jar is. I feel so loved. :)

I just realized that maybe I haven't explained the jar on the blog... Every time someone would come visit me they got to write their name on a piece of paper and put it in the jar. Every other week I would draw a name from everyone that had visited with me in that two week period and that person would win a prize, such as movie tickets and gift cards. This drawing was the Grand Finale drawn from everyone that visited over my entire stay.

Visiting Hazel

I know, I know... She came home months ago and I'm barely posting pictures of the kids first visit with her. Apparently when I promise something asap that means two months later. She's been home almost ten weeks now. She was in the NICU for almost twelve. Crazy to think that she still hasn't been home as long as she was in the NICU. It feels as if she's been home a lot longer. I'm grateful for that. It automatically felt so natural to have her home, of course because it is natural to be with your baby 24/7.

Susan, Hazel's primary care nurse, was ready with the camera as the kids came walking in to see Hazel (Thank you Susan!).  I love their excited expressions!








 This is how you hold babies.










I wish these two pictures were more in focus!

I promise this was the best family picture we got. With six people it's hard to catch everyone looking at the camera at the same time let alone smiling. Hazel was pretty overstimulated by this point. Can you tell?

Friday, May 23, 2014

41 Weeks 6 Days, 11 Weeks 3 Days

Sorry for the radio silence. So much has happened. Let's play catch up, shall we?

Monday they opened up the NICU for sibling visits. Yea! We knew on Friday but didn't tell the kids until we pulled up to the hospital on Monday. They were beyond excited. I think it was a little much for Hazel. Talk about overstimulation.

Hazel had a second swallow study last Thursday, the 15th. She didn't pass, again. Boo. On Tuesday the Developmental Team suggested starting her on the Gel Mix before the weekend. Babies have to be 42 weeks to use it (which is tomorrow). The doctors said, why don't we start her today. Ok! She started it Tuesday night. Then on Wednesday morning they decided to let her eat whenever she wants and however much she wants. She has been a great eater since her first breastfeed, so naturally she has done great. I was worried that she would be too sleepy at night to wake herself up , but she has done great.

She is still anemic, which is why I worry about her being sleepy, but her hematacrit keeps getting better. When they did labs on Tuesday it was 29.9. One of the nurses said it's usually between 35-45. About 6 weeks ago she was 23, just to give you an idea of how low she has been.

On Thursday Hazel's nurse called and told me to bring in Hazel's carseat to do her carseat test. I told her I would if she thought we were close, but I really didn't want to get my hopes up... again. The nurse practicioner called an hour later after rounds with the doctors were done and asked if we wanted to room in that night and that Hazel could be going home on Friday. What?! I didn't know whether I should believe her or not, but of course I got my hopes all the way up and got excited. How could I not?!

Well, we roomed in last night and Hazel did great waking up to eat, and she passed her carseat test. Which means... we brought her home today!!! It all happened so quickly. I still just stare and her and smell her cute head and can't believe it's real. We are all so happy to have her home!

I will post pictures asap. I wanted to share our exciting news with all of you right now! I couldn't wait. :)




Sunday, May 4, 2014

39 Weeks 1 Day, 2 Months Old!




Look who is on a regular cannula! That happened Monday. Her oxygen flow is down to 1. She also hit exactly 6 pounds on Monday. She is still doing great nursing and taking bottles.
They've stopped her multivitamins because there has been calcium in her urine.

Life around the home front has been busy. We are finishing up our year of home schooling. What a fun adventure it's been. It's been nice to have flexibility in our scheduling and sometimes the boys have been motivated to get more of their work done so they get ahead. I can't wait for summer break to get here though and have time with all of us together. Sometimes the stress of everything gets to me and I just wish we could all have a day off.

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I typed the above info on Tuesday when she hit 8 weeks. Here's the latest... She had a swallow study on Friday. They do a "live" x-ray while she drinks a barium mixture so they can see if she is aspirating (that means that fluid is going into her lungs) when she eats. When they did the thin liquid she did aspirate while on her right side. They tried a thicker liquid and she did fine. Here's where it gets tricky.

If she is aspirating that is very very bad. It could lead to pneumonia among other things and she could get really sick. Where she already has chronic lung issues that's a very big deal for her. It affects her more than it would a baby with healthy lungs.

The solution to keep her from aspirating is to thicken her milk. The problem with that is the stuff they typically use to thicken the milk with is only approved to be used in infants 42 weeks and older. She's only 39 weeks. What they can use is bananas. But, the amount of bananas they would have to use to thicken her milk wouldn't give her the right balance of nutrition she needs.

So the plan they came up with is to give her 21 mL of her milk/banana mix with a bottle and the rest of her milk she has to get through her feeding tube. The good news is I can still do an entire breastfeed with her. The Occupational Therapists have seen how I feed her and they know that I know how she has to be held so that she's comfortable and won't aspirate (hopefully). If she is going to aspirate breastmilk is the best thing to go into her lungs. Not that we want it to...

She will do another swallow study in a few weeks and hopefully she will pass. The sad news is that we know she won't be coming home for at least another 3 weeks because she has to be able to do all of her feedings by bottle or breast to come home. She can't do all of her feeds by breast because she has to get the extra calories and protein still, and she will for a while after coming home. She will still have to do 3-4 bottles a day with the extra calories and protein. I think Avella had to it for a few weeks after coming home. And she can't drink an entire bottle for a feeding because of needing the bananas to make it thicker... Well, you get the picture, right?

I don't remember how much I've explained the tightness in her muscles, so forgive me if I've said all of this before. Because so much of her growth in the womb was without fluid she was pretty wedged into one spot. Her right foot likes to pop up to touch her shin, she doesn't like to straighten her arms, and she likes to tip her head to the right and turn it to her left. The therapists come and work with her every morning and they have also taught me how to hold her, lay her down, and how to gently encourage her to relax those muscles and get a better range of movement.

She's doing better at straightening her arms and her foot is getting more flexible. Sometimes she will turn her head to her right while I hold her or she'll let me hold her with her neck straight and lined up. We try to lay her in her crib with her frog (that little beanbag thing) around her head to keep it straight. If we try to lay her on her right side it typically puts too much stress on her neck and she gets upset and tries to not let her head lay down on the bed but lifts it up instead. So much hard work for such a little girl!

They haven't told me how long they think she'll have to do therapy, but we will have to do it once she comes home. Whatever I can do with her will help the process along. She responds better when it's someone she knows. She is familiar with the therapists and with her primary care nurses. When she gets a new nurse or therapist she doesn't always feed or respond as well with them.



She is awake so much now. It's fun to talk to her and have her interact. She loves to look out her window, which is where she was looking when I took this.


Hazel got this bear from my friend and her family (along with some candy that Ryan and I may or may not have shared with the kids). I had put it in her crib, but I came in the other day and found it like this. I get why they put it there. She can see it better there than in her crib, but it almost looks a little creepy to me just hanging there. Maybe that's just me though...


Today while I was holding her she picked her head up off of my chest and turned it to the right. So great! It's a really big deal that she can do that and be relaxed.

Love,
Ella